There are always things going on outside of the frame of the photo. Sometimes this is good. The entire internet does not always need to know about my every insecurity, random obsession, fear, doubt or sniffle.
But right now I’m pretty much fully absorbed in the task of figuring out what is going on with Claire’s sensitive belly. For many, many weeks I’ve taken note of odd symptoms and dismissed them as “a tummy bug” or “growing pains”. Then I realized that they were showing up together; the same pain, fatigue, and digestive issues every time.
Two weeks ago I realized that I couldn’t dismiss these episodes any longer. Something is going on, and it’s my job to find out.
So I’m staying up late reading about food allergies and gluten intolerance, eliminating foods from Claire’s diet and trying to think of things to cook that we can all eat. I’m sure it will all get easier when I actually know what’s going on, but right now there’s a lot of hypothetical thinking and fretting over meal planning.
The weird thing, the thing that I keep coming back to and just can’t resolve, is this: neither Tom or I have any food intolerances or allergies of any kind. What makes a food intolerance arise out of the blue like this? I suspect that her symptoms are all coming out now because she stopped breastfeeding in November, and the gut-calming effects of breastmilk have worn off. But that still doesn’t tell me where this sensitivity came from in the first place. It’s easy to see how a parent in a situation like this could very easily point to something like a vaccine and attribute causation there. Because it could have been that, or toxins in any other part of our environment, or just random chance. I’ll probably never know.
Of course, it could just be the stomach flu! I could be worrying over nothing. At least I’ll find out whether it was the flu or the food over the next week or two, as I slowly and carefully reintroduce cow’s milk and gluten.
For now I’m going to go read my library book (Susan Cain’s Quiet – I am loving it so far and gobbling it up as quick as I can) and try not to think about food sensitivities any more for a while.